Emotions. Always a mess. Can not get them in check.
Have not seen Justin since Friday and maybe that is a good thing. I dont know if I can deal with seeing someone I like this much, only to walk away not being able to muster up the nerve to talk to him about what I feel.
Instead I spent today talking a lot to Bill.
Yeah I know what youre thinking.
"Who the fuck is Bill?"
Bill is a guy who works Tuesday or Thursday mornings, and usually Sunday nights and I just now got to talking to him today and he is pretty cool. I've also got 3 years on him and well I dont know if I can get into a guy that much younger. Granted, 3 years is not much, but still.
At work today, before we opened, our manager Ellen gave the bartender, Karen, a magazine article about "Halloween drinks". And it had the directions on how to make them. And Ellen let us take a sip of them. One was called "Green Goblin". Which tasted like an apple. And the other was called "Jack-o-Tini" and it tasted like an orange creamsicle. Ellen asked Bill why he didnt try them and he said he is only 19 and she said "Just take a small sip."
I hate emotions. I hate my life turning into a soap opera. Too many guys. Too complicated.
Fuck.
Anyway, I bought the season 1 DVD set of "Boy meets world" today. Used the gift card BJ got me and I only owed Wal Mart a whopping $14. Yay!
Back to baseball.
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